1:20_06.04.2007: time to start again my friend time to start again

success.

it took everything i had. in some ways i went too far, over the top, blew my load, but in time i will learn to widdle down, down to the minimum, down to the truth, the bones the core.

this project tells me a lot about my style, it informs me of what i like and where i am headed.

i have two styles ive discovered. one if outside myself, it is functional, it is design,

phonebook, Ibook, SketchBooks, Earrings, Bags, hats. Accessories.

the other is internal searchings, discoveries, questions, philosphies, nonsensical: Sleep Dream Repeat, The Space Between, Primarily Events at night.

both are representations, commentaries, beliefs, reflections of the internal and external world.

oh yes oh yes oh yes. time to start again my friend time to start again.


Coming Soon: Le Petit Papillon

11:24_04.23.2007: ...... ... ...... .. .... . ..

that's it.

11:16_05.15.2007: its beginning to look a lot like the end

crashed hard i think.
maxed out my ram, and crashed hard.
got back a test today. an ugly grade.

this whole term has been me trying to find time to think about my piece so that when im asked, "whats it about?" i can say "________".

rather, i think the answer is a silent smile and "i dont know".

id like to think that at least, but id never be satisfied with that simple of a response. the truth is i cant explain it. maybe someone more articulate, but SDR was made because i can't articulate my thoughts.

its a visual interpretation of representations of thoughts. symbols of symbols that refer to emotions, feelings, ideas.

metaphors that appear behind my eye as cliff notes for bigger concepts.

what exactly all the symbols refer to is sometimes crystal clear, and sometimes hidden, even nonexistent.

the piece speaks of itself, its the journey toward understanding, the changes that occur, the gears behind the impulse, the idea of the idea, the cycle, it's comlicated, unpinnable, nonsense, abstract, but every once in a while, when i'm thinking... my mind goes somewhere its been before and i see the images ive made, and i know they're right.

2:21_05.14.2007: in a constant state of country song

ive sent the finished (mute) video off to my composer to se if he can make heads or tails of it.
ive tried everything. but nothing sits well.
it might need to be mute, but not until thats what it needs to be.

my composer is good, proficient in many styles and many instruments.
i have faith. just as long as it doesnt sound like Pirates of the Carribean.

10:39_05.07.2007: the sound the sound spills out of the ear. its clear and odorless...tacky to the touch

i acquired a

field

recorder

kit.
and a microphone though that isnt working properly so my recordings have a scratchy click click next to the pants sound and wind goes bump boom bimp into the internal mic.

took what i could and dropped it in and around the video. arbitrary decisions led to a few layers but not enough like running out of whip cream when covering a hotchocolate. spotty patches like my week old beard.

nothing can be arbitrary, i realized that again while recording sound today. my piece is so complicated that to throw random bones would ruin its integrity.

i do not want clinkety clankety tick tick tack all about the room making the video into some kind of silly festy fest. so as the name implies, tonight i will mount a microphone to my face and gather snore snores. im not obnoxious in my sleeping breathing but those REM breaths are gentle large and deep. i think laying them down next to the visuals will make the giant seem more peaceful and not too flip flap in the wind, window shutter spooky.


on a second note... im beginning to wonder if my grip is too tight that my piece is dead. that i killed it and have for months now been dragging a lifeless corpse. it is my my shell my web a simple silhouette of the mind and it deserves to fly.

1:20_04.30.2007: blue square

on a post-it are the five little things left to do to the film.

1. Extend NMR in tunnel smoking for overlap
2. Shorten sequence Brushing Teeth
3. Fade out @ end
4. fade in @ intro
5. Fade In to Exterior Wall


been typing a way on my keyboard in garage band. its not that i dont know anything about music, but i dont understand the tonal relationships well enough to make "music". because of this, the audio will most likely portray the nature of the film which, is completely appropriate. i envision solid tones. four of them arching up out of silence and down again like mighty swells as the piece moves on. over, or under these four sequenced tones is an even larger fifth tone that arcs over the entire piece. the problem is that solid tones grow stagnant, boring if not annoying as they progress through longer and longer spans of time. in some way, whether the tones evolve in complexity or medium, it must "do" something as it grows.

there are key moments in the piece that warrant some audio effect. gasp of air as the piece begins, heart bleeps on a medical machine at the start and end. sounds that accentuate the moment out of time that SDR represents. another position audio could be used is in the transitions from screen to screen. the four tones swell out to silence in these points so silence is a possibility. yet so is a look into the underlying structure. a metronome at 4/4 then 3/3 and so on. the piece, as its nature is one of many sided, inner, outer, phenomena, neumena etcetera, so the nature of the sound should move between "music" textural sounds and the exposure of structural elements.

the end Aural piece should then be something of a mess.

yes. that sounds quite appropriate.

11:19_04.26.2007: counter intuitive push in the right direction

spoke with Ying and Chris.

felt right.

up to this point SDR could not be influenced. now, these last few steps, i feel as though the metal has cooled the hilt wrapped and as i pick up the newly forged weapon its a bit too heavy for me to handle.

"here, hold it like this, shave this off, tighten this. there, thats a fine weapon, youll have it in no time"


the beautiful arc from concept to product,
the wholoe time intuition and emotion pushing me forward the whole time design design design slowing me down.

a break a break a break we're taking a little break.