12:42_04.06.2007: coming up upon the crest and glimpsing the sun at its lowest point

my friend told me after going out on his first EMT ride along, a graveyard shift. stories of yuck i heard and i asked, "how do you do it?"

"i maintain professional distance"

i maintain professional distance. even though my work right now is a self examination of my psyche and my emotions and my identity and my fashion sense, it is at the same time a design problem. step back, you have these elements. now put them together intelligently. the piece is driven by emotions but the back seat driver is logic.

as the days go by, more projects flood my mind. new ideas fresh ideas that have been bottled up because of the pressure i put on this beast. i remember now how my ideas are so free. not connected, nor constructed directly from conscious thoughts and internal dialogues. but merely gestures.

every piece that appears in my brain is light, simple, quiet, free.

im excited to step out and make some work that isnt so directly about me for a while. that being said, there is in no way any regret i feel for taking on myself as the subject for the BFA. it has to be this way.